It’s sad. Receive this heart breaking news on last Sunday, it really messes up my mind and my momentum. Am only able to go to see her after my exam. Feeling guilty as I feel that I didn’t do enough for her. Seeing her laying in her deep sleep, we are part by a different world plus a glass panel, I want to wake her up. This must be some kind of joke, which till now I still couldn’t believe what I heard on Sunday is true. Yes, someone darling to me had left me. She was my grandma.

Old auntie says:” 她是我的忠实听众，现在没有人听我唱歌了！” this is my grandma younger sister. She brings grandma to KTV every time and sings for her. This really sank down to my heart.

Don’t worry friends, the process is over and I am okie. Just very tired for pass few days. I don’t really feel like telling or sms-ing.

Means I will not be using my laptop for the next week till after my Exam 10 June.. and most prob DND from 5 to 10 June while I on my study leave..

Okie it's not a big deal why am I kicking a big fuss... as I am a Fussy person. But any thing urgent still can message me. I'll be shutting myself in my precious room and dig my head into my notes .. nah .... hope so okie, cos there are temptation in my room ---  my TV, cable & DVD .. sheesh ...

Okie, I shall go and get ready for my retreat, just got my energy pen from you. Thanks a lot and it means a lot to me

Oh my mum makes a lots of dumplings and it reminds of Sailormoon ... ahahahaha, cos her Bf in the anime calls her a dumpling head .. okie not funny .....

"Sometimes when I don't ask which doesn't mean I don't care, I do care but I just don't know how to start with and I'm scared I ended it up with something worse. I get flared up easily, so it's best for me to keep mum at the moment" I don't wish to see any sadness from your face.... I'm sorry for your lost, "he" means something to me also, I wish I could just hug him once more..

All right, I shall get on with studying and keep my lappy hidden from my sight ..

Didn’t blog for almost 3 months.. the very last blog entry was at 1 Jan .. now, March is going to end soon.. can’t let the gaps be sO big..

January 2008 – { A so so month}

In fact, my memories are no as good as last time, so don’t really remember what had happened major in Jan .. Oh,, except my Year 2007 work appraisal. Same as usual, I didn’t score well but who cares! No matter how hardworking I was, I’m not the apple of my Finance Manager’s eye.

She gives me a rating of 2 upon 5 on something which I was too angry that I forgot what is it! Opps above paragraph I said I dun care much but actually it matters me a little plus a little times the power of 1000.. tmd .. she’s a bitch. A old hag + bitchy bitch.

It really makes me wanna leave this stupid company.

I HATE HER !

February 2008 – { MC month }

Think I have 1 day of MC just 2 day before Chinese New Year Eve. All because I have a sore throat and I want my throat to recover so that my stomach can consume those New Year goodies!

Lucky me, fatty supervisor was on leave for the next two days, and old hag bitch manager was on leave on New Year Eve too! (our company having half day)

I remember I watch 2 episodes of season 5 L Word “online”.. .. I was actually looking for Heroes Season 2 .. but couldn’t find a decent one .. so kekekeke!

Let me talk about my reunion dinner with mum and brother! It was so cozy in our small kitchen, having our favorite steamboat. When we are eating half way.. the phone rang . .. the 3 of us looked at each other .. We should be thinking of the same thing, then suddenly my mum burst out.. “impossible lah, couldn’t be him, he already 3 years never call back since that time he went back”

/sigh .. .. I just need to know whether is he safe or not. Nah.. we shouldn’t carry so much hope with this kind of heartless man.

I sleep very early on the eve of CNY .. it was the coughing syrup which affects me… ah .. I hate it!

Hmm my two Secondary buddies finally meet up with my two ITE best friend. Too bad, my three Polymates didn’t come, last year that Heipi didn’t come to my house.. only ah pui and xiao gua came.. if not it will be very noisy in my little room.

Knew both groups for more than 10 years. It felt great that we still continue to keep in touch after all these days. Oh not forget mentioning another secondary school pal. I knew Junior since I was in secondary one! We are not in the same class, but we first met in our bus journey to school, I forgot who approach who.. but that is how we become friend till today.

This CNY, I kinda enjoy myself. The mini gatherings with old friends, brings back lots of happy memories.

Beside CNY.. there are still other things going on for me.. It’s better not to mention here. I felt a bit weird to mention here, but since the event had happened & it happen on the 26th of February..

First time is in Year 2002, now is in 2008, except both are in different month. And both dates are birthdates of important person to me.

I had an interview also. But a failure interview! I spoke of something which I shouldn’t say! Darn.

March 2008 {Busy & Lonely Month} "not really that lonely, I still got "u-know-who"

This March was a damn busy month for me! My office is shifting to another location..

Firstly: Work overtime to rush accounts
Secondly: Go back office on 1 Saturday to pack files (bring over new premises & keep in store)
Thirdly: Go back to new office on 1 Sunday to unpack
Fourthly: AR colleague on leave, I have to cover her daily invoicing work
Fifthly: Part time class on 1 Saturday!

I rather spend my weekend at home, do nothing, watch dvds, read comics then to go back office!

Lonely ~ as in my brother went to Paris for 2 weeks .. 21 Mar to 8 Apr .. hmm I miss his presence at home, his PC noise of playing WOW and his Pipa.

I almost cry in the airport. I felt my eyes wet but manage to keep the tears from flowing out! Ahaha ..think my mum’s the same! I will felt the same way when sending my mum off at the airport also!

Sounds silly rite … …

Beside my busy schedule for work and studies, this month manage to meet up with Pui and Heipi for breakfast in Chinatown. Had a little bit of catching up. Both are busy with school projects and new job .. Whereas Xiao Gua busy with dating ??

Always the same, got boyfriend, dun want girlfriend ☹

Doing nothing for this 2 days .. been packing my stuffs, want to make spaces for more things .. my room is too small for all my stuff to be in!

I want to change to a bigger wardrobe.. some of my bed sheet and blankets are either in my mum or brother’s wardrobe .. both of them have bigger ones ! If $$ permits, I would like to change my bookshelf too! It looks empty cos I can’t put too heavy books on it as the centre of the bookshelf will sink. It haven’t been fully utilized.

Oh my gosh ... I had been addicated to this online "gambling" games since my friend told me today 30th Mar grr hmm .. 5pm+ , been playing it till 12.50am just (include the time i went for bath and dinner)

I m such a gambler ... only in a virtual world, I could win $$, but in a real world, I shall not dream too much about it.